Life Rambles | Getting A Puppy, Mental Health & Chronic Ilness.

okay, okay let's address the elephant in the room. It's been a long old time since I sat down at my laptop and tapped away at my keys, hello loves. I don't even know where to begin, but If you'd like to continue to read onwards i'd get a cup of tea in one hand. I love that aspect of the bloggery-world that you can just sit down and share to your hearts content - It's really therapeutic for me to be honest. It's nice to have that space on the interwebs to just sit down and type away. I really think it's very important to share somewhat personal-ish parts because it's nice for your readers to see your not a robot, i'd love to say it's all good and positive days but sadly this is the real world and it's not like that, there's just as many tough, down and difficult days believe me, for one that's been a common occurance. I think I put way too much pressure on myself when I was in the swing on my bloggery-ways. But I do that, I much better now but at first when I started this journey - I love blogging, going away really made me sort of think and re-evaluate what I wanted to post, now i'm going to be focussing on everything and anything. I never really had a time frame either of how many times I wanted to upload a week, now I have a idea and I feel like i'm more structured, I've notebook filled with posts - keep your peepers pen and ready - I just also, wanted to thank you for comments and for following and baring with! - it's really, honestly appreciated. If you have any ideas on what you'd like too see please feel free to let me know, that'll be awesome. It's a lovely little hobby that I intend to keep :)



Luna-bear - the best little puppy in the world.

Luna was a surprise, a present from the most loveliest boyfriend. She's 6 months now, if you're interested i'm happy to post updates and such on her. You'll fall in love with her just as much as I am - she's so wonderful, loving, affectionate and honestly i'm smitten. She's really impacted my life in such an incredibly, amazingly way. I'm so thankful for her.


As you can imagine a lot of my time has been spent, on regular visits to the vets, walkies in the park, showing her off to everyone, she gets so much attention I think she gets annoyed with it aha she's great though, happy to lick and play bite anyone who crosses her path. It's insane to think just how much she's grown, she's the smallest out of her litter and she definitely still is very little, I think she'll stay little too, even when she gets older, I absolutely love smaller dogs myself so this is perfect. I called her Luna after Luna Lovegood, ok.. laugh if you must. I just had too, she's one of my faves.



She's a mixed-breed, Jack Russell-Cross. Her favourite things include sitting on my lap or her daddy's with her head out the window, sleeping between us in bed, cuddling up next to me, watching people and cars walking past and many many more completely adorable little traits - she really has helped me lots and has really completed our life's.

just look at that little face of hers I just want to squeeze her tehe

Mental Health & Chronic Illness.

Mental Health unfortunately, has been a huuuuge part of my life since I was fourteen. Panic attacks were the absolute bane of my life for a long long time, I seeked help eventually, they really are still horrendously terrifying I do still suffer just not as much on a much milder scale, which is incredible and I thank my body for allowing me this - I remember those days in school being curled up in the medical room waiting for my mum to pick me up and take me home, being absolutely clueless as to what was going on. I did a post on Panic Attacks, if you'd like to read that.


During the months where I wasn't blogging, I had an absolutely vile time with Anxiety, again, something sadly I've dealt with for as long as I can remember. I also took time out and seeked help for this - I changed doctors, had medical this and that and various other bits and pieces and I eventually found an incredible doctor that found out what was exactly going on, overwhelmingly from what I just coped with for what honestly is and felt like a lifetime, I had actually been suffering with conditions such as GAD, Fibromyalgia & Chronic Fatigue Syndrome / M.E - I'm so thankful I changed my doctors, seeked further help. In my opinion, get a second opinion - always! Just to briefly sum up, I constantly felt tired, but tired to the extent where I physically felt like I couldn't do anything - hit a wall almost as some other sufferers would describe it. I'd ached constantly, like a flu ache or like I had walked miles upon miles, I never had any energy, constantly in pain. I just remember feeling like this for what felt like a whole lifetime to which my previous doctors just said it was anxiety, annoyingly I just accepted that.



Although, I just knew something just wasn't quite right, I shouldn't of been feeling that much unwell, that much pain etc. I feel like i'm an old lady trapped inside of a 24 year old's body. I still live life, I don't let this illness stop me unless of course there's a day where I practically felt really, really bad and I needed to rest. I just listen to my body and know what my triggers are etc - I'm now under going a pain course to deal with the pain.



Right now, i'm such a good place - i'm very happy. I'm so grateful for all my incredibly amazingly support circle too, my boyfriend especially has been so good :)

Bourton On The Water

Happy Thursday lovers, it's almost the weekend! I thought i'd do something a little different this week and yesterday we took a little trip to BirdLand, Bourton On The Water. I absolutely loved it, it;s such a cute little pokey place and one i'd describe as attracting many the tourist it's actually quite close to where i live and wasn't a long journey but was such a lovely, cute little place. We actually went to see the Birds, in BirdLand. But we did do a little sight seeing and stopped of for some fish and chips, it's only a small village but had this sea sidey feel to it although it's not a sea side town at all, the shops we're so quaint and cute also, i would've spent a fortune if i hadn't been so restrained - here's what we got up to: Fish & Chips, Sight Seeing, Penguins, Flamingos, Being Whistled At by Parrots, Pink Flamingos, Freezing, Spending & Bonding. 



What a cute little old place this is, i love villages and you'll find me wondering for hours about it's history and what not so for those nerds like myself that may find this interesting it's a little roman town and has River WindRush running through it :) I've taken some pictures below, I've rated this a 9/10 also, i recommend it :) BirdLand it's self was lovely to walk around, one for friends and family although i don't think it;s one for children but i absolutely love penguins, so much so i loved that about the place! :) 

(These two were taken from Google) 

Back From The Moon / Update / Where I've Been

Personal/Illness.
My oh my, it's been a while - crikey. I'm here alas and i will update you all as to where, what and whom and that malarkey! Damn, i don't even know where to begin to be honest with you all loves. I suppose i'll begin here, Anxiety. This little nightmare as some of you are aware - i suffer with this, i have done for a long old while now and it's definitely here for the long haul. I've had a right traumatic time with this the past couple of months, i've had a few anxiety attacks too, i've recently been through write a stressful point in my life and my has that reared its head too. That's one thing that's not only prevented me from blogging  but everyday things too. I've just only managed to attend work and to my dismay this bugger has been a battle and its won every single time! I have recently become aware that i do have a Anxiety Disorder, i'm much better in myself as it stands at the moment.. really hope it stays like this, it's a real battle if i'm honest with you. 





Job/Leaving. 
I've also recently been somewhat unwell and stressed which has caused a knock on my health hence the anxiety, i have now left and am looking very forward to my new job, i cannot wait. I'm the type of person that thrives for success, ambition and like to be challenged! I want a career and would rather not be stuck in a job i didnt enjoy! 




Driving & Lessons. 
This has taken a lot of my time up as i'm learning to drive at the moment i'm in the process of studying towards passing my theory so fingers crossed!







I've really really missed blogging and i'm very much looking forward to getting back into it just bare with me as i'm going to be altering and making some changes to my theme and layout and what not, happy blog happy mind. I'm soooo pleased to see my blog has reached 77 followers, this means so much to me. Thank you, you'll hear from me soon, very soon, keep your peepers peeled! xxxxx

Lusting, Wishlist

Oh my god, who else finds themselves looking through page upon page of these beauty sites such as Feel Unique, Selfridges, Space Nk.. Do you have to wipe that drool that's dropping from the side of your mouth? Ha i feel you. There's just so much i want to add to my stash, so much that i'd love to add into my basket and the amount that basket totals up too, -chokes- It's not pretty. It's that little bit of luxury though and even though you might have to work three whole months it's worth that amount and when you have it it's like applying gold on your face! Here's my current 'Wants & Must Haves'. 




Mac - Speed Dial, Lipstick: Love this, i don't know what it is that's attracting me so much, i just really like the color, how it swatches and i know because of those two things i'm going to love wearing this. 


Zoeva Rose Gold Brush Set: I find myself saying every time i read a review or see a post or a picture for that matter of these ' Why don't you own them!' They look amazing, i need to jump on this, fast. 


Hour Glass Ambient Lighting Powder: Heard nothing but incredible things about this, it really looks like it apply's so beautifully and really makes a difference to your make up!


Anastasia Beverly Hills Dipbrow Promade & Pro Series Contour Kit: As i've gotten more and more into my brows and been somewhat my adventurous should we say, i do need to get my pretty little mitts on this craze that is Promade. 



What you lusting over? 

Seventeen Contour Kit

                               

Seventeen ' Define & Conquer' Contour Kit / Link  - £5.99




I love a good old contour going on, it's vastly become a staple part of my make up routine, I don't think i'd not even be able to go without a bit of a the old dusting of the bronzer on my face. I have a fair few freckles and do find I do need to be a little careful so I don't ' over do it' but I just think it gives me so much dimension, it takes away from the freckles and being on the pale side it's kinda, well needed. I do enjoy the look contouring gives and I don't think i'm alone in doing it, I haven't quite mastered the whole Kim K of contouring but we need to start somewhere don't we and what a great way to start when these drugstore brands are absolutely smashing it with their kits and their take on the contouring trend that's hit us and the latest 'must have' kits or cheeks.




Okay so let's get onto the review shall we? - how sleek is this packaging, oh yes in true beauty blogger style I've noticed the somewhat Nars esc packaging that I do love. I do find the powders to be somewhat that little tad chalky, not that much of a big deal really, not for me but others it could be, if that bothers you. I found both powders to be decently pigmented and i'd most definitely go with the term ' buildable' which let's be honest is a good thing not bad. The darker powder obviously defines the face and it does but I did have to tap my brush to ensure I wasn't going to end up 'too chalky' and the lighter - highlighter shade illuminates, isn't orange tinged as some often can be, i'm not one for that whole orange face.

Overall / This has wowed me, contouring and kits like this scare me slightly due to my freckles. I'm light handed but it's so easy to 'over apply' minus it's slight chalky-ness it does blend lovely, and effortless. It's definitely buildable so it's fab for the daytime as well as the night time, or those cheeky nights out where you'd be a little more dramatic. The staying power was very surprising as it really did stay put for the whole day and for the whole night - can't complain, I think we can go as far as saying this is a right old bargain. I think it's a product i'll happily continue to play with and hopefully.. Master the skills of Kim K! Ay, it could happen.




                                                                 Have you tried this?

                             

 

Soap & Glory - ' Clean On Me'

     




Ever since I first discovered this brand, way back when I immediately loved them, they scream indulgence, pink in your face and general ' girly-ness' then they're most definitely for you - even back then, at 17 I fell for this brand, the packaging has changed since then but it's nice to see the 'girly-ness' has remained throughout their products which I find an absolute a winner.. Ay, i'm a beauty blogger of course I love packaging! If you'll know by now, i'm a firm believer I use to be a mermaid or something, a fish perhaps? I just love water and even more so when it's filled in the tub..  

              

Clean On Me / £6.50 - Link

This particular product has always been a firm favourite for me it's definitely one I've repurchased an umpteen amount just because I brimming love it so much and by heck it's worth this review. I'm sure i'm not the only one who sticks to what they know, love and just a classic is always a winner isn't it to be frank ladies - this huge bottle lasts me absolute months, another thing that makes me love this little beaut even more, the price is a barg at £6.50 - I've always returned back to this one, I tend get quite dry skin and this doesn't dry that out even more, it helps to soften and by heck don't my skin feel soft and moisturised afterwards and that's because this contains a built in moisturiser, what a winner.



I tend to be someone that sticks to a product and this stands out big for me, it smells divine and of course it's fragranced with that - oh, so addictive smell that we've all came to adore. This was the first ever product I brought from them that and when 'sugar crush' was in a blue bottle, anyone else remember? - old. What a babe of a product to be honest with you, it's a pale pink - gem.

 

                            

Thick, luxurious and softening, a must have product that should be sat on all your bath - sides. 'Cleanliness is essential when godliness is improbable' Is this a love of yours too?  

Mini Splurge

In true style and living up to whole - beauty blogger status - here's my latest items that seemed to have found themselves into my basket - there's nothing like composing a post like this, you really can't have enough beauty items in your collection can you? I don't think i'll ever stop, of course not.

Two new Barry M Gelly Nail Paints to add to the mix, I've had my eye on the Papaya one for a while now and it's firmly been sat on my wishlist for longer than i'd like so picked up I did. 'Pomegrante' Is this gorgeous pinky - red shade, it's deep and beautiful - I can't wait to put these on my nails.

Finally I have my hands on the 'Bourjois CC Cream' & The ' Happy Light Serum Primer' I have wanted to try these both soooo long, I just haven't gotten around to picking them and on a deal of buy one get one half price how could I not? I'm dying to try them out, heard nothing but good things, I really really hope the live up to their hype, i'm expecting good things.

I really rate the Vitamin E Skincare, I think Superdrug have really triumph - These were two items that caught my eye from them! I can't wait to try them, the look and smell delish!

Finally is this little gem and a hell of a find! Tk Maxx, £3.99 - I suffer with redness and i'm very prone to spots etc so this is suppose to help that, can't wait to try this!